Thursday, May 18, 2006

I want to go back in time

Many times lately, I've thought that it would be so nice to go back in time to when our baby boy was a newborn baby. Ok, not for the obvious reason that he's driving me crazy with his tantrums but because now that I know him, I don't feel that I loved him enough when he was a newborn.

Don't get me wrong, I loved him with all my might when he was newborn, but I had no idea what a beautiful little person he was going to be. He was such a little stranger at the time - it was a very odd feeling.

So, when baby girl was born, I think maybe I was starting to recognize how precious she was going to become to me and I was able to realize a little more that even though I loved her as a newborn, I would love her even more the older she gets.

Does this ever end? Can my capacity for love increase even more?

I'm continuously amazed at what this parenting thing involves.


Courtney said...

I have felt the same way but didn't know how to express that. You did it perfectly.

Josephine said...


Just wanted to thank you for stopping by my site.

Also, I am not a parent, so I can't really relate to this post too much, but I do feel this way about my family members and how I treated them in my youth.

Hind sight is 20/20, I guess!

Veronica Mitchell said...

I have learned that when my babies are born, it takes me about six weeks to feel all the fuzzy love stuff. I care for them well anyway, but bonding takes me six weeks. I have always been a little envious of the moms who say, "I fell in love with my baby at first sight." That's not in my nature. Falling in love takes me a little time.

I think we always grow into love. Could I possibly have loved my husband the same way ten years ago that I do now? I didn't know him so well then. With little ones who are growing into themselves too, it must be even more true.