Thursday, May 18, 2006

I want to go back in time

Many times lately, I've thought that it would be so nice to go back in time to when our baby boy was a newborn baby. Ok, not for the obvious reason that he's driving me crazy with his tantrums but because now that I know him, I don't feel that I loved him enough when he was a newborn.

Don't get me wrong, I loved him with all my might when he was newborn, but I had no idea what a beautiful little person he was going to be. He was such a little stranger at the time - it was a very odd feeling.

So, when baby girl was born, I think maybe I was starting to recognize how precious she was going to become to me and I was able to realize a little more that even though I loved her as a newborn, I would love her even more the older she gets.

Does this ever end? Can my capacity for love increase even more?

I'm continuously amazed at what this parenting thing involves.

3 comments:

Courtney said...

I have felt the same way but didn't know how to express that. You did it perfectly.

Josephine said...

Hi,

Just wanted to thank you for stopping by my site.

Also, I am not a parent, so I can't really relate to this post too much, but I do feel this way about my family members and how I treated them in my youth.

Hind sight is 20/20, I guess!

Veronica Mitchell said...

I have learned that when my babies are born, it takes me about six weeks to feel all the fuzzy love stuff. I care for them well anyway, but bonding takes me six weeks. I have always been a little envious of the moms who say, "I fell in love with my baby at first sight." That's not in my nature. Falling in love takes me a little time.

I think we always grow into love. Could I possibly have loved my husband the same way ten years ago that I do now? I didn't know him so well then. With little ones who are growing into themselves too, it must be even more true.